If I dont take a break =A=
Bad things are gonna happen...

Alright...I've been going into too many depressions lately...
I just tried to draw a gift for my friend and just....
shitshitSHIT!
HORRIBLE...I COULDNT EVEN GET A HEAD DOWN!

Then I tried to draw something for a club...
Started over about TEN TIMES!

I swear I was gonna pick up my chair and toss it out a window...
I thought I was gonna....Die mentally...

All these art depressions are making me do real bad things to cure them,
number one thing being EATING...
Which is a very unhealthy habit...

Of course I went on another depression today and actually felt like giving up art. Feeling like I was gonna curse myself to a future of more depressions if I took up art as an actual career...

_{Being as there is hella more better artist out there anyway, I probably wont get a job in anything art...but then again that could be my depression talking...}

Once again I put the needs of others before myself, making my drawing be 'Correctly proportioned', 'Anatomically correct', and 'Realistic and shit'. Because I try to draw all this...even trying to stop somewhat curving my men...I only get angry and frustrated...
and now...

I HATE DRAWING

HATE IT...
so before destroying my future over a funk...
with the help of =ZannyHyper its decided...
I'm not drawing till next Saturday the 11th...and if possible I'm gonna try to stay offline from DA.

I'm gonna go and try to simplify my style and try to make my drawings more about making ME happy...and I actually HAVE FUN doing it...

I cant keep going like this...
I really need to stop pleasing others...
so if I draw a new picture when I come back and the arms are off...

Dont say anything?

please and thanks...
_Sid